Oh Chris, so sorry how could I forget your Bi-Polar.
I asked my counsellor if I’ll ever be normal, she said you weren’t normal before the HT and so the answer is no. She does say I am becoming more like the person I could have been had I not had my childhood issues. Not sure what that means but it sounds interesting 😳😳. I find the journey interesting, especially if I were just a bystander and not the subject ...
Apparently I have suppressed emotions from childhood and so I’m feeling very sensitive as for some reason the HT has caused me to be more emotional. I’m not used to these waves of emotion. I am going back through my childhood adding the emotions I didn’t really have at the time and it’s a journey I can tell you 😳😳.
So I’m hoping that I will come out in the end being more emotional than I was but not so sensitive as I am now. Does that make any sense.
Had to up the Mirtazapine to 45mg . I didn’t want to change anti-depressant so close to coming of the HT.
Also reduced the gap between counselling, which helps. I’m trying this new thingy where you flick your eyes one way. I think it’s for PTSD. We’re also gonna try Mindfulness next.....
The new ME 😆😆. I may be a monster or a pussy cat..........
Thanks for your input guys, much appreciated. None of us on the same road but running parallel to each other.
Shall I post updates on here or do I need to start a new thread ?
Phil.