Hi all
Just an update as promised
Call this morning from Oncology Pharmacist, PSA down to 1.4 and Bone markers within normal levels with all other bloods normal. Next test now moved out o eight weeks from the two that has been the norm.
All good news on that front but I must admit with Christmas, New Year, daughters 14th Birthday all with a week and the announcement from my son of a new grandchild due in June, its all become a little overwhelming.
I have with the help of my wonderful wife managed to stay positive so far but when you get these markers in life although you can say "ok lets aim for the next one" It was difficult with so many all together, once the "I wonder if I will see another thought" came into my head I was stuck with it and the depression that came with it.
Covid doesn't help, with my wife booking some dates for caravan hols with her usual bubbling optimism both about the virus and my condition whilst I was hitting a low only made the issue worse before my brave front cracked and I was reduced to tears, only to get a rebuke for not telling her how I was feeling, even though she had noticed my mood and was trying to cheer me up without saying anything openly.
At least now with the appointments moving to 8 weeks I can try and put it back in the box in my head without the constant reminders and needles. I have been advised about counseling but feel its not for me, I need to be able to block it out so the less I have to see or speak to anyone the better, being on here is enough and gives me support when I need it so far.
Oh Happy New Year and lots of them to everyone on here