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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 11:32

Bazza

Although I have given up caffeine, I have to confess I have been drinking a bit too much, Honestly, I suspect that is at the root of it.

User

Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 11:33

Hi Pete, and others…

I fully understand where you are coming from. I too am really struggling with the mental issues. I had some trauma in my childhood and the diagnosis / HT has for some reason made me run through it all again even though it was all put away in a box. So I am now learning how those traumas affected the way I think/act now. My counsellor is doing her best – poor thing!

It certainly seems that if you’ve had some issues/traumas in the past then we do suffer more. I can’t even offer any advice as I am no nearer feeling better myself. Just counting down the days when I can come of this shitty HT injection.

Strangely it is comforting to know I’m not alone in feeling like this. I am contemplating upping the Mirtazapine to 30mg but I am worried about how sleepy they will make me feel.

Funny that you say that the battle inside your brain is almost harder that the PCa battle. I fully get that and wish I could get over it and think more about the future but I suppose we find it frightening to look forward too much.

I wish you all the luck in moving forward.

Phil

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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 11:51

I was joking about the fags

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." Soren Kierkegaard

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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 12:38

Just to mention that upping Mirtazapine does not improve sleep. It becomes more of an anti depressant at higher doses

If life gives you lemons , then make lemonade

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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 13:42

@GH - good and bad we are in the same boat. My counsellor is earning her fee too! You are right about looking forward. I think I need to take it one day at a time and count my blessings.

@Lynn - I know but the thought of going back to that disgusting habit just triggered me. I have flashbacks to walking into pubs six months after giving up and getting hit by a wall of stale beer and stale smoke and realising I used to smell like that!

@Chris - I use low dose trazodone. It helps with sleep and heart rate but at higher doses acts like a sledgehammer.

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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 13:43

Good info thanks Chris. I will bear in mind if i decide to up to 30mg.....not something i really want to do but I need to manage my brain until i come off the HT. i cant even think about going back on the HT if I relapse in the future......something i know you struggle with too Chris.

Phil

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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 14:42

Hope all goes well tomorrow.

Thanks Chris

User

Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 15:38

Cheers Chris

User

Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 16:51

Can't get past lunchtime without caffiene, can't get past dinner without wine, I have never been happier!! Certainly not giving either up...

User

Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 18:57

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Bazza

Although I have given up caffeine, I have to confess I have been drinking a bit too much, Honestly, I suspect that is at the root of it.

P

Ditto in January, mostly after or during listening to the wrong music. Cutting back now. On the beer and the wrong music.

And I've found zero alcohol beer. All the taste*, all the sensation* of beer without the alcohol related after effects.

Haver you considered or tried low or no alcohol options? Just a thought that might help, it's helped me.

atb

dave

* "almost all" ;-)

Do all you can to help yourself, then make the best of your time. :-)

User

Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 19:51

I assume that the wrong kind of music means anything but C & W? :)

I've tried low alchohol booze - all the calories, none of the fun for me :) I just need to cut down and be sensible. I do find my head space gers better after a few dry weeks.

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Posted 25 Feb 2019 at 21:48

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CB

I assume that the wrong kind of music means anything but C & W? :)

https://community.prostatecanceruk.org/Scripts/tinymce/plugins/emoticons/img/smiley-cry.gif How did you guess? Late 2013, after my op, out to get refreshment, Sunday afternoon C & W on Radio Northampton, heard This Cowboys Hat - Chris Le Doux. Excellent song, went home, U tubed his music, excellent. Googled him, he had died. He left some excellent C & W music though, and not all sad.

Music doesn't get to me as deep as it used to, or as often as it used to, but on occasion..OOPS....!

I hope that your personal clouds pass soon.

dave

Do all you can to help yourself, then make the best of your time. :-)

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