Lyn,
The psycho-emotional aspect of my suffering (if it can be called that) is in all reality horrible. Various emotions come into play time after time and at any time of the day: it pursues me relentlessly. Knowing that my decision to opt for a life-saving operation was both worthless and a wrong decision affected me a lot when it was made clear to me that I did not need it because I was given another man's biopsy result by error. There are many times when I cry and I get tormented by the situation. I have been living with it constantly since the error was revealed to me. Another aspect of suffering is having to undergo PFE, penile pump, taking Viagra/Cialis and using Aprostadil cream - all that I do not need to do if I had not been given the wrong results. I keep asking myself why i have to do all that. Physical damage such as loss of erection, loss of ejaculation, loss of length of penis, loss of natural feelings of eroticism while engaged in lovemaking all add further to psychological/emotional turmoil within me. It is the very knowing that I did not need to have an operation that is worse of all - this makes me feel full of remorse even when I know it is not my fault. So much is swirling around me emotionally and it is too much to go into here. I would not wish anyone the situation I am in - it is plainly horrible.
I have written down a list of what affected me for my solicitor and he will take it up. What one misses out is the fact that my wife has been affected by my situation and it has an impact on her and our sex life. But at the end of the day, she is a wonderful woman and her love shines through all of the doom and gloom. I thank God that we met and married. We are closer than ever after 41 years of marriage and even more so since it was made known to us that I did not need the operation.
I am not seeking to milk the NHS but to claim what I think is fair amount of damages for the dreadful error they made. This is in a way unfortunate because I have a fondness and respect for the NHS and it's work. It takes one person and his mistake to damage a life, which is a shame.
Lyn, yes I will have BSL interpreter represented at the assessments. I do not need the interpreter when I meet my solicitor since we both communicate well. I am able to lipread in one-on-one situation.
Rafael
He who lives, loves and knows what it means to die - Jiddu Krishnamurti
Edited by member 10 Nov 2019 at 12:04
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