Marje, you are an incredible lady and it's so lovely that you are still posting and helping others.
Anticipatory grief, thanks for helping me understand that this is what I have been going through right from the beginning of this journey. I relate so much to a few of the above posts, i especially find myself hiding my sad feelings from those closest to me in order to protect them.
My bob is still fighting the good fight but I hope when the time comes I will be able to build my life back up as you other wonderful ladies are doing now.
Take care all
Lesley xx